Oh, hai! I'm Amanda. If you have a sense of humor, are intelligent, and enjoy nudity, sex, anti-religious humor, beautiful/interesting things, and all kinds of dorky shit, you will appreciate my presence on your dash. Have a nice day!
It is so incredibly difficult to not get depressed about how quickly time passes us by. We slave away at our jobs day in and day out, with absolutely no time to enjoy our lives and spend quality time with those we love. I try my hardest not to take things and people for granted, but it’s almost a way of life for me at this point. I always just assume relatives I haven’t seen in months or years will be there when I finally get a chance to visit them. The worst part is that I know for a fact I will regret all these things in my old age; working too hard, going months and almost years without talking to friends and relatives, being “too tired” to get up and do something about it. *sigh*
I recently told a co-worker who I’m particularly close with the entire story of my past - more specifically, my father. She sat there staring at me, mouth agape for a good 30 seconds, and then told me how amazed she is at how well-adjusted I am and how I should be proud of myself for managing to keep all that negativity out of my life. I had never really thought about patting myself on the back for making it out of that shit storm… because, to be entirely honest, am I really well-adjusted? I’ve got extreme anger issues, I’m absolutely horrible at conflict resolution in my most intimate relationships, I fall apart at the most minor of provocations and have zero confidence in my ability to overcome obstacles. I suppose, though, on the surface I appear well-adjusted. Which is good. The fact that the face I put on during the day is nothing but an elaborate facade is certainly worth further exploration… but I’ll save that for when I have time.
Reblogged from religionisamindvirus :
"The masses have never thirsted after truth. They turn aside from evidence that is not to their taste, preferring to deify error, if error seduce them. Whoever can supply them with illusions is easily their master; whoever attempts to destroy their illusions is always their victim."
My night has officially been made. Boy, does it feel amazing to be done with school and back to doing/watching ridiculous, pointless shit. :D
Oddly enough, I’m not urgently craving human interaction like I thought I would when I finished school. Perhaps because everyone sucks? Or maybe because I have 3 full years of derping to catch up on. I’m gonna say it’s a little of both… but moreso the former.
HOLY SHIT NO MORE SCHOOL AHHHH!
Aaaand we’re back to derping. :D
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